THE BEND AFTER THE U-TURN....

I am finding it surprisingly interesting documenting this process of my life on the blog, kinda feels like a diary thing going on...
anyway when the whole u-turn thing began believe me i had not seen this one coming.it is the bend after the turn. so you have made the turn and are now moving then you meet this turn that we all dread, the one where you reach and begin asking yourself, will all this pay off? (it always does but we still ask anyway)when things get a bit rough and you don't get the kind of reception you were expecting,when you are trying to mend your errors and something keeps you back,when you suddenly get that urge to give up on the whole idea but you cant do it seeing how your life has changed for the better?
believe me i thought this was going to be a ball...far from it.i see it as having four stages namely 1.The euphoria moment. 2.The messy drama 3.Awesome discovery 4.Deep depth.lemme break this down for you then you will see...
1.The euphoria moment.
this must be the devil itself(for real) anyway this is the point where we have just began the journey when we are busy plotting and scheming our plan of action and the next course.when we are full of zest and we are ready to go. when our psyche is so high up and even those around us are busy championing us to go on. our hopes are high, our ambitions clear,our faith unshakable.yes this is the euphoria we all experience when we beginning this journey. as for how long it lasts it varies with our personalities.for some its long others short.

2.The messy drama.
how we wish we could skip this one...now this is where code name drama begins.when the zest begins to fade,when people still insist on carrying that grudge against you that you have forgiven yourself for, when people don't seem to believe you(these usually are the majority),when it begins to look like work and it starts being heavy,when you simply want to drop your bags and move on back to the old ways.many of us get stuck at this bend and we fail to move on with it.it gets so rough giving up seems like a wonderful option...well don't do that,its not worth it, wait till you see the rest of it you will be glad you stuck it through.

3.The awesome discovery.
i like to see this as the hallelujah bit of this journey.very few people get here by the way. it is usually after one has struggled with the battles,tough moments,lost faith,endless bitterness,people who want to hold you back, the temptation to turn and all that characterize the second stage. it is when we have fought through that and come out successfully that we begin to experience a discovery. we begin to enjoy the journey in a more realistic manner realizing that not everyone is going to support you for it or even believe you. it is after we have experienced challenges within the turn and have learned how to deal with this(for the record prayer helps to get through the drama).it is after we have seen the mean world and faced it with strength and courage.the u-turn is no longer that much of a struggle for we have developed a thick skin,we have seen the benefits and know this is worth fighting for.

4.The deep depth.
now this is the cherry on top!!but do i say. this is the point where the u-turn begins to be like an inborn thing in you. when the youth of the moment returns and you are constantly looking for ways to get back there again, to do another turn.this is the point where you desire to improve the turn and make it sharper this time more wisely.you have become a guru, a master of your own self.you have won over your own mind and can now pursue that which you eye. you have doubled your strength and have become phenomenal even to your own self....sounds good doesn't it?sadly the number of people who get here are few and countable because they get stuck 'discovering' instead of moving.
am not promising you an easy journey though the euphoria is good,don't live there too long its too simple, too fickle,too shallow a stage to get caught up in.the messy stage will be as hard as any rock, you will be stuck between a rock and a hard place, you will want to give up but hold on, the best is yet to come.the discovery is good we get to see the errant ways of the euphoria and we move over to realistic measures,but that is not the best yet.when you get to the depth,it will be so good you will not even want to look back(even if you do its the best part and you will want to go back). my word to you is nothing good in life comes easy,for this will you will fight the hardest battle of them all- a battle against your own mind, own will and desires.fight a good fight and you will reap sweet rewards...am still on the road to the depth,just easing out of the drama bit into discovery....

cheers to all good warriors...